Saturday, June 22, 2013

Aw man I gotta name it, too?

I either have all drawings, or all writing these days, don't I?

Well, theres LOTS of this. Lots of random stuff kickin around.

I've missed this, whatever it is.

I think I'll get back to it.

MY writing gets better when I practice.

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Let's get the self deprecation out of the way quickly

I feel like I'm due for a verbal beating.

I don't know why, like, its not like I've done a whole lot wrong, but I still feel like I'm going unpunished for something.

And no, no one is going to want to read this, I understand.

But I really don't care one way or another! This is my blog, not yours, I shall post what I feel like posting. Deal with it. End of thought.

Okay. So, in typical teenaged boy fashion, I am VERY insecure, made jealous VERY easily (despite being in the WORST. DENIAL. EVER.), and am VERY incapable of handling these feelings I don't like.

Like, they don't just feel bad in my head or whatever?

It gets me to the point where I can't eat or can't sleep. Can't enjoy myself. I will randomly start hurting places. Nothing feels good. I feel awful, and there's nothing I can do.

Okay. Now here comes the part where I'm actually very afraid and very self conscious about what I am saying and putting online. I'm sure there are LOTS of depressing and self-absorbed blog posts like

this, being written right now, explaining a lot of worse things. Like things that actually matter and are real issues. But this is my head i'm trying to juice here. I have no reasons to feel bad or

insecure. And if I do, then there has GOT to be a many more reasons to feel good about myself. But I haven't felt good about myself for years. Well, I'm not too sure if that is true or not, but I cant

really remember the last time I really deserved to feel good about myself. Maybe just because I'm in a terrible mood right now and don't want to remember. OH god, I AM SUCH A FUCKING WHINY KID.

I'm glad I could vent out some of my shitty angst.

I'm also REALLY bad at painting space marines?